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Beautiful Sisters,

I’m writing you from a space where I actually experienced space – space from my stories, space from all the stuff I tell and label myself, life and people around me. It’s a new interesting thing for me to choose my reality. To stop being a victim of my circumstances but actually realize that I have such a huge power over how I show up in my life and experience the challenges. How can I relax more into life? Build trust? And keep moving in the same time? 

Emptying out… Sounds scary to give all away…but what sweet relief. What sweet gift of seeing and feeling you are light. You are a soul – whaaaat. Yup. Radiating light. You are so beyond all that you tell yourself every day.


I’d like to take you to that space – space of emptying out in nature with other amazing women – that have different stories attached but are the same essence, same light, same radiating heart calling them and your home.

I’m inviting you to join me from September 7th until 9th for a NEW MOON weekend in nature with sisters, joy, relief, sharing, caring, amazing food, good wine and sweet cakes in Ticino – the beautiful Italian part of Switzerland.

A weekend to empty out from the active summer season and moving in and beyond your body through yoga and many other helpful tools that you can take and bring into your everyday life to feel ALIVE. Because that’s what matters and sometimes we’re too caught up to see and distance ourselves from what’s happening outside and what’s actually calling from the inside.

EnJOY with me and 5 other sisters an intimate gathering for 2 nights and 2 days in beautiful Ticino, the Italian part of Switzerland. Let’s celebrate the sweetness of life and liberate the wild courageous woman inside of us. You already are… the time has come to deeply recognize it from your heart.


~ max. 5 women
~ we’ll sleep and spend time in a beautiful Rustico in Ticino with a big lush garden to relax and nurture yourSelf
~ we’ll move our bodies, touch our hearts, expand our breath for life and FEEL
~ we’ll enjoy amazing food, swim (naked) in wild waters, have wine and green smoothies, have adventurous walks in the woods, create ceremonies in nature and just connect to our true Self and practicing LIVING YOGA with the helpful tools that Yoga has to offer – from working with Wisdom Goddesses to find your voice and power center to complete relaxation and floating in Yoga Nidra and Yin Yoga – I’m a 300 hours certified Yoga Teacher and will be trained another 150h this June in Yoga Nidra and Yin Yoga. I believe in Living Yoga and using all the tools I have to live a life aligned with my heart desires. Yoga offers tools to manage our systems and so be able to show up for ourselves and the world.

~You investment is CHF 525.- (early bird until 15th of May/454 Euro) and CHF 666.- after the early bird price (575 Euro)
and includes 2 nights, 2 dinners, 2 brunches, coffee/tea/fruit/cake surprises, 1 opening & 1 closing ceremony, 3 x yoga play session, ecstatic blissful dancing and in between time to connect naturally either alone or with others
~ before the retreat you’ll prepare yourSelf with the Gone Brave Women Starter Kit Course which is included in the retreat

I’m offering one sister that is struggling financially the opportunity to join for a discounted price and instead invest her energy and love with me in the kitchen. :) just hit me an e-mail if you really wanna join and also love to help create beautiful nourishing meals for us and our goddess sisters.

This retreat is for you if your heart calls you, it’s for you even if your knees might shake because you want to finally feel ALIVE, RADIANT and in TUNE with your inner guidance system. You want to LIVE FULLY WITH ALL THE INTENSITY OF LIFEjoy and terror, bliss and pain – instead of keep numbing yourself because of fear.

Reserve your spot now via and let me know WHY you wanna be part of this journey.


“I believe that if there is something you need in order to move forward, the universe will send you on a journey. The 14 days of brave women was a journey like that. Aleks created space for everyone to go deep within and allowed us to examine our beliefs and patterns that no longer serve us. I loved that the exercises were simple, to the point and that I could really focus on the parts of me I used to look away from. I am grateful for connecting with all women who participated, the love and support that were omnipresent in any form of our communication. What I really enjoyed was that it wasn’t all positive affirmations and sugar coating. In the most loving way, Aleks made me face my own *shit* and lies I was telling myself. That helped me incredibly to dissolve the old concepts and I connected with the raw, authentic and wild woman that I am.” (Linda Bezdekova, Czech Republic)

“When I first read about this course the outline instantly resonated with me, even though I had no idea what it would be like exactly. And I am so so glad I joined. To kick the year off by tending to myself, facing my inner issues, shits and truths, turned out to be very insightful and precious. Every day’s ritual revealed another layer of my own truth and I can already feel a shift for me and notice that I am becoming more and more aware about situations, emotions and actions I need, or rather want, to work on. I especially enjoyed the journaling exercises and being connected to a community of truly inspiring women. Sharing my own insights with them, and especially with my soulsister buddy Céline (forever so grateful! 💕🙏), and reading about their experiences pushed to continue working on myself. And made me realize: we are all connected, we all carry our package, we’re all walking each other home in the end. As I am not a superstitious person per se and have a rather skeptical nature, I have to say that I pushed all biases aside and approached the course rituals with an open mind and heart, not taking everything too seriously – thus I really enjoyed almost all of them and was able to take a lot out of this course. Thank you so much, Aleks, for this carefully thought out the course and all the love & heart you put into it for us! Much love to you and my soulsister community here 💓🤲” (Karina Seidel, Switzerland)

You can find more feedback on my website wonderful sister..<3 but the truth is that if your heart is calling you, it is the right thing. No matter who says what – good or bad, amazing or fearful – your heart truth matters. 

Once you registered, you’ll transfer the deposit of 200 Swiss Francs, which is not refundable. The investment doesn’t include any transportation or any extras you wish to enjoy for yourself. With paying the deposit, the process already is starting – it will build up until the retreat and you’ll also feel the effects after it. Also, I am able to offer you a space to sleep in Zurich if you’re arriving from another country. <3

So excited to do this amazing adventurous inner work in beautiful and abundant places with you my dears! :)

With much LOVE from Goa,

English, inner journey

My wonderful-painful-intense learnings of 2017!

What a crazy intense year!

2017 was a huge wake-up call for me – a wake-up call to come back to my heart and I see that 2018 will be a big year of surrendering and giving up control!

Anyway… I’d like to sum up some learnings of 2017 that have been so important. Congrats if they trigger you because one huge thing I learned: Whatever triggers me, is an invitation to inwards! :D

x Self-Honesty – this is the way to go!!!!

-> Oh shit. Everyone loves to blame others for lying to them and not being honest and blabla bullshit. Why I know? Well, I’ve been there too. You’re so much in that victim-blaming-other-shit that you just don’t get the fact that MAYBE – maybe you’re just not honest with yourself too!!!! Ahhhh! Haha. Who want’s to know that? It’s like pretending that you only buy organic meat from animals that died laughing to hard :D we hate radical honesty. Because then we have to start owning our shits. And just do the work. Which can be exhausting. Getting to really know yourself is based in self-honesty. Oh dear… you’ll find a lot of shit in that hidden, pushed-away basement :D but in the same time, if you get to know your shits, you also get to know your amazing heart gifts. Trust me… this has been so hard to realize last year. I fucking lied to myself. This hurts. It hurts because it’s so anti-self-love. And I’m still not there with self-forgiveness…
So – if you’d be radically honest to yourself right now at this very moment – what would you allow yourself to see?

x Don’t sell your heart to please anyone.

-> This is a very bad deal. Pleasing and being liked has been a huge topic in my life and especially last year I wanted to be liked and loved so much that I got pretty crazy and pretty much the worst version of myself. It’s scary how our fears and triggers, if not aware of them, can make us pretty weird humans. Def. not the highlight of my year :D haha. But good that I’ve experienced it…because with that I made one of the most important realizations:


->Holy shit. I didn’t keep boundaries up last year because of the fear of not being liked. This was a huge mistake. Setting boundaries mean valuing yourself in action. Whenever I sad yes to something or someone and let them run over my boundaries… it hurt my soul so much. It hurt my whole being. It hurt me deep inside my heart. Whenever you say yes and you don’t feel it, or you say no and you don’t feel it, you actually don’t take yourself seriously. You have to take yourself seriously if you want that others do that too. And the ones that don’t: You’ll trigger them so much that they’ll leave pretty soon. The more I’m clear about my boundaries and respect them (yes you have to respect your fucking boundaries!!!!!!!!), the less I actually get tested and have such people in my life. Thank god, it’s exhausting. Especially women have this social conditioning around boundaries and saying no. So I had to deal with lots of guilt and shame in the beginning. Once you start saying no btw., you’ll also have to accept that some people will say no to you too :D haha. Just in case you forgot.

x Get to know your triggers and fears well!!!

-> Once you know your shit, you’re able to center inside of yourself. That means no matter what comes, no matter how fucking stormy it is. You know your shits. And you also know your heart. And you stay there centered. If you keep chasing stuff that will distract you and hopefully make happy and forget your fears and shits… well, be prepared that it will bring you directly there inside your own shit pot with all the fears, repressed anger, and all the other fun stuff :D so better stay for a while alone and get to know your shits. This is self-responsibility on all levels. Get to know yourself first. And then from there grow LOVE.

x You’re capable of being alone (aka with no man next to you) and take care of yourself.

-> This one is huge. I was so scared when I realized that we’ll have to break-up. That meant all I thought will be, I had to let go. Being alone scares many people. Many women who get very triggered by the numbers between 30 and 42. And are in the urge of finding THE man and making babies. FAST. But wait – why? WHY? Suddenly they forgot that they said they’re fine being alone. Well… many have that. That’s why also many stay in relationships that just don’t flow. So little self-love. Myself included. I really got deep into that one and asked myself “why am I so obsessed with finding a man and get pregnant?”

Again – self-honesty. Like WHY DO I WANT IT REALLY? Really really.

Oh shiiiiit. I’m scared to be alone. Not lovable. Left.
Well… great base to have a family! *irony*
My best friend keeps reminding all women around her that it doesn’t get easier with kids. If it would be, then your stressed friends before kids, would well…be very relaxed now, no?!

x Don’t cling to a mind-made picture, better get the reality check.

-> Woahhh reality checks are super painful. We actually hate reality. We rather cling to the perfect, dreamy, romantic pictures we made. But it’s only in our minds. And life is chaos. Ignoring that chaos… well be prepared for some huge shit coming your way. It won’t flow and this is also the next learning:

x Go with the flow. Allow yourself to flow.

-> I’ve been a huge planner. Now the only things I plan are my work stuff because I committed to be more of service and that only works with focus. But everything else… the Universe is guiding me. When I start getting stuck in my head – everything else gets fucking stuck too. So. Boring. So. Not. Fun. At. All. Like really!

x I have a huge ego. Damn what an ego!!!!

->We all have a bigger ego than we think. Also, spiritual people tend to forget it :))
the break-up was very very humbling for me. I made myself very much accountable for my own shits that happen during our relationship. There was a lot. Understanding that we’re not victims but play a part in every game (aka life situation) is suuuupppppper ego melting. It’s like “oh..ohh shit.. okay. sorry.” and then you sit and feel and keep changing in your every day life. You just can’t keep blaming AND being an asshole. I def. was an asshole many times. He too. We both. So sorry for that. Also being 3 months at the Amritapuri Ashram – I started to get a slight glimpse of what DEVOTION really means. It means giving up. Surrendering to god (or Universe or Life or however you want to call it if the word “god” triggers you).

x Love will always bring out the best in you, where ego-shit will grow more shit.

-> If you’d ask me now if I *still* love my ex, I couldn’t say no. And then – why? Why do we have to stop loving someone? I mean LOVE IS – always. Sometimes we’re so much in our shits, we don’t see love, we can’t recognize it, we’re so scared. Anyway, LOVE made me move towards APPRECIATION. Means I felt so much LOVE and HUMBLENESS when we broke up that THIS was my motivation to dig deeper into my own shits and not just be in passive victimhood. But people confuse this with being together. You can LOVE and you can know that a relationship will just not work out.

x Forgiveness – oh forgiveness. What a drop of sweetness in all that bitterness.

-> How often do you meet people that are like casually telling you that they don’t care, they forgave blablabla. Or then there are those who are still so angry that they say they will NEVER forgive. Forgiveness. Shit. Forgiving myself – my ego makes it so difficult. Ego loves that we suffer. Ego is that inner voice that makes us behave like assholes to ourselves and others. I had some very deep moments in India where I felt so connected to my ex and saw all the beauty in his heart. And mine. My mantra was:

Puhh. Forgiveness is a super advanced spiritual practice. So many layers… so I didn’t forgive yet completely. Because I still don’t feel peaceful. I still feel triggered. And disappointed about how stuff was/is. So it is. And it’s okay. I try to believe it’s okay but it’s not always so easy for me.

x No man will save you ever.

-> Come on… men need to save themselves too. Why do we expect that they will save us while they’re struggling with saving themselves already? Men have a lot of karmic shit to work through. Like A LOT. And I know… so many women will be now “I don’t want that, I know no man will save me…” – well, I’ll say: “Dig deeper Darling!”. It’s a very subtle social conditioning that still lots and lots of women have. I’m watching that pattern. I watch myself scanning men. “HA! No no no girl, you don’t want that guy. You got that saving thing by yourself!”

x You gotta be your own best friend first!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-> I’m that kind of person who immediately has the urge to share all from her heart. That’s why sometimes I think that Instagram got a bit my safe comfort-zone. I don’t share with everyone. In real life, I choose the people I share my sorrows very well. I’m just not in anymore for crappy fear-based advice. I love if my best friend and also my Indian father Dinesh make me accountable for my shits. They do it in a very loving, radical honest way. I take that serious because I deeply feel they want the best for me. BUT I really don’t wanna deal anymore with people who project their shits on me and give me weird advice. Or approval. No advice, no approval. Sometimes it triggers me if people give me unasked advice :D it’s an old wound that what I feel is not right and needs fixing. And now I’m learning also more that I can deal with my own shits too. You know not immidately run and tell. But just be and it’s okay, I’ll survive it. But also not let that emotions get stuck in my body. So dealing with your stuff means like really dealing with it, not surpressing it. That’s why it’s sometimes easier to let it come up and talk. Or writing it also helps. It brings up the heavy feelings and you can let yourself feel it all. It’s not super fun but very relieving. Clearing. Loving. So this is how I take care of myself. Literally taking care when I need myself the most and this is in pain.

There is also, of course, the other thing: Enjoying beautiful moments alone. I mean all movies and books are about the two people enjoying the sunset together. Which is beautiful. I loved sharing my journey with Adam. This was really hard in the beginning – to not share. But you’re so excited and then you realize you can’t share it anymore. Then you get sad. Now I let myself just enjoy more. Even though alone. :)

x Trust your heart and that you’re guided by something much bigger, brighter and more loving than your mind.

-> Intuition – that little voice that tries to wake us up. We like to ignore it. Because waking up means being radically honest and then you have to change and change can be pretty painful. You think I was super amazed when my heart started whispering me that I have to learn to be alone? Break-Up? Say Goodbye? Lose my friend? Fucking deal with all the consequences?

No damn, I didn’t want. I cried so hard for 2 months and begged for more time. More time was 2 months and then the Universe felt I’m ready for a new chapter of my life.

So trusting your heart requires self-commitment.

A commitment that whatever your decision you make, it will bring you nearer to Self-Liberation and Self-Realization.

Or this is my way. I feel the tantric yogic path for me. And yes, this is more than asana (physical exercises). It’s off and on the mat. It’s with people and not in a cave. But since I committed and asked my guru Amma for my personal mantra, my personal practice is so easy. It’s like brushing teeth. Like drinking water. A good guru is here to awaken the guru inside of you. This is it, just in case it triggered you :D guru and god… lots of karmic shit for many of us to clean-up since religion fucked up lots of stuff in the past (lives).

Anyway… go own your shits.
And be of service. Don’t think just about yourself or how you can benefit. Make all benefit from your heart gifts.

x See the good things and what you’ve learned.

-> Once I got into my heart, my friend Dinesh told me that it is time to do an appreciation list. Pick a person and write for 14 days, one thing that I appreciate about them. Grrr. I choose another ex. Damn. Haha you know I realized how I didn’t want to see the good. I didn’t want to wish him luck (not only him….). Anyway I struggled in the beginning and then I slowly opened up and found some pretty good stuff :D haha and you know what? It melted the anger away. Also, I slowly come to the point to see what I’ve learned in my relationship with Adam. Not just inner stuff but also all around traveling. And GOOD COFFEE! Like really good coffee. :D hihi. About dedication, focus, and commitment. The list goes on but it’s not about that. Just see what you’ve learned. Appreciate the time you had. <3

So… the last thing:

x You can’t run away.

You just can’t. Whenever you run, the shit runs with you. Damn, that’s why running away feels never good :D haha. You always feel threatened and like something is trying to chase you – because it is! YOUR SHITS! :D haha. I know I mentioned that word so often here… But it’s like that. I wanted to run away 3 times in the Ashram. And my friend Dinesh said: “Can I tell you something?” – and I said yes very scared :D
His answer: “There is so much focus on the outside…Your heart is calling you to go inwards!”

Holy shit… I felt how my heart space was closing up and I knew I have to stay. And the next time I just watched my urge to walk away. Later on, when I entered my shit pot, I didn’t even consider running away as an option. :) so this is super beautiful! :)

Okay.. this is it! I’ll stop now :) I’m super ready for 2018! Let’s see what kind of gifts this year has hidden for all of us. :)) I know that my vision for 2018 is to be of service, devoted to my heart and stay gentle with myself. Also adding no: Breaking all the fucking rules and let go of all filter, masks, labels, constructs, ideals…

That’s why I’m hosting an online workshop this Sunday that is called “The Art Of Speaking Up” and it’s all about going into that shit pot, meet your fears and from there build a base to be able to actually be brave and speak up! So if you’re ready, get all the info here and the early-bird-price is going on until the 6th of February. :)

So much love,

PS. Next Winter, you, I and other amazing sisters, a week in magical Northern Bali, freeing our BRAVE WILD WOMAN and living aligned with our hearts. Check this link for more info. MY HEART IS BEATING FAST FOR THIS EXPERIENCE.

English, inner journey

good girl gone brave woman – 14 days of courageous rituals

We admire brave people and feel so inspired by them but how brave are we able to be when listening to our hearts has a direct consequence of standing alone? Can we still listen to ourselves even dough everyone is saying the opposite, getting triggered and maybe even reject us? Can we still trust? Speak up? Share? Get really honest with ourselves? 

Join me and other sisters around the planet on JANUARY 1st (full moon of course!) to kickstart the new year differently – braver, freer, lighter, more joyful, calmer and just LIVING more from the sacred space of our HEARTS. From darkness to light and from the light to the darkness. 

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9 questions to journal today to help you get clear about 2018

Let’s stop writing stuff like “losing weight”, “earning more money” and so on as a new years resolutions. I’m realizing more and more that if I shift from just “I” to the bigger picture and how I can be of service, things start to move and I feel trust in life.

These 9 questions to journal are my gift to you and if you get really honest, you will benefit A LOT! If you wanna go even deeper, join now my 14 days of courageous rituals.

You have heart gifts and the world can benefit from them. Not only that: It will give you a deep sense of satisfaction because you’re not denying but living them! :)

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Wann warst du das letzte Mal so richtig mutig und hast deinem Herzen gefolgt – egal was die Konsequenzen dafür waren?

Es ist Zeit Selbstverantwortung zu übernehmen. 

Wann hast du das letzte Mal deine Komfortzone verlassen? Dich in ein unbekanntes Gebiet gewagt? Eine Entscheidung mit unangenehmen und unbequemen Konsequenzen getroffen? Deinem Herzen gefolgt, egal was?

>> Klicke hier und lass es mich wissen! <<

Mutig sein heisst für mich, immer wieder etwas zu wagen, was mir irgendwo Angst bereitet, etwas von dem ich nicht weiss, wie es enden wird – da ich Kontrolle abgeben und vertrauen darf.

Viele denken ja, da ich schon etwas crazy bin, ist es für mich einfach so easy,aber ich sage es dir, ich bin schon nervös alleine an den Flughafen zu fahren und dort alleine einzuchecken – in ein Abenteuer ins Ungewisse und vor allem ALLEINE. Ich ganz auf mich gestellt in einem crazy Land.

Es hat verdammt viel Mut gekostet einen Mann und eine Beziehung loszulassen, die ich so fest wollte und auch noch liebe  – die danach folgenden Konsequenzen waren SCHMERZHAFT. Aber ich wusste, dass ich dieses Mal bei mir hinschauen möchte, bei mir heilen und lösen möchte – nicht wieder einen Mann oder die Gesellschaft oder weiss Gott was passiv oder aktiv verantwortlich machen – denn es ist immer ein Geben und Nehmen, wir spielen immer unsere Rolle bei allem im Leben.

Es hat mich verdammt viel MUT gekostet 2015 meinen Job als Community Managerin zu kündigen, mich in der Schweiz abzumelden und dann mit einem One-Way-Ticket nach Bali zu reisen. Und das sind nur Dinge, die gross scheinen nach aussen – aber es gibt tausend Sachen, die mir täglich Mut kosten – dazu gehört auch das Unterrichten von Workshops und die Mauern um mich herum loslassen, mein Herz öffnen, bei mir bleiben und doch Liebe geben.

Deshalb meine Liebe, habe ich realisiert, das egal was ich mache, egal ob drinnen oder draussen, egal ob es gross oder klein scheint, jede Entscheidung braucht immer Mut, vor allem, die, die von Herzen kommen, denn das Herz sucht sich nicht immer den bequemen aber lohnenswerten Weg aus.

Daher möchte ich dich jetzt dazu einladen, dann Leben ebenfalls MUTIG zu leben – am Sonntag um 14.30 gebe ich einen konstenlosen online Workshop zum Thema GOOD GIRL GONE BRAVE WOMAN – falls du nicht live dabei sein kannst, bekommst du die Aufnahme – zur Anmeldung gehts hier oder sonst lese einfach mehr darüber.

Egal wie unbequem es manchmal scheint, ich kann mir nur noch ein mutiges Leben vorstellen zu leben und spüre wie das Feuer in mir schon nur beim Tippen entfacht :) DANKE, auch, dass ich dir diese E-Mail hier schreiben darf, freue mich riesig Teil deines Postfaches und vielleicht sogar Herzens zu sein.

So much love and courage,

PS. Am Samstag gebe ich noch einen letzten Workshop in Zürich – Full Moon Yoga und Meditation – wir verbinden uns mit dem Vollmond und es hat nur noch 2,3 Plätze frei <3 JOIN US SISTER <3

PPS. Verfolge mein neues out-of-comfort-zone Abenteuer auf Instagram! :)

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Exploring: Fear of being misunderstood

There is so much to be discovered, it amazes me day by day. Yesterday when I posted my Instagram story with my very personal pictures, I hesitated for a moment (but did it anyway since that’s just a value I live by).

“Why,” I asked myself?

And now this morning I understood why.

Because I’ve been scared that people will misunderstand it. Box it. Make it their own. Have an opinion.

Where does this fear of being misunderstood come?

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English, inner journey, society & taboos

people say

people say don’t cry
people say I can’t see you so sad
people say you will feel better again
people say than this person was maybe not the right one
people say why why why why
people say just don’t be so much in pain anymore
people say “this” is not to be shared in public or on social media

And I say: STOP IT.

It’s not yours to judge (“just say”) or solve.

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